Not a healthy cookie.
But I was hungry and it was there.
And you know what?
I didn’t like it.
I’ve noticed something since I’ve started working out so intense every day (see my Insanity Results for more info) and that is that I have no desire to eat junk food. It’s not even a conscious choice. When I am hungry my body rejects candy, rejects cookies, rejects chips. I’ve been snacking on raw almonds, fruit, or even a spoon full of natural peanut butter. I’ve eaten Fiber One cereal for lunch because not even lunch meat or other traditional lunch foods were appealing to me. And it’s not really something I have control over.
Also, I had bought some sourdough English muffins from the store the other day (they just sounded good I usually buy whole wheat) and they just don’t taste good. My body is craving the whole wheat.
With that natural urge to eat “clean” has been a more conscious decision on my part to try and cook more from scratch and replace normally packaged foods with homemade foods. I haven’t gotten very far yet, but I have big plans once I hit the grocery store.
I am FASCINATED by this development. I mean, not even a taco is appealing to me, and pizza is waning in importance too (the horror!). The other day I stopped at Burger King for my daughter as a treat (spare me, we do these things in moderation, it teaches them…well, moderation) and there was nothing I wanted to order. I ended up going home and making my lunch there.
My body is craving my homemade oatmeal cookies made with whole oats, whole wheat flour, flax seed, some margarine, an egg white, cinnamon, raisins and Truvia. It would be a perfect cookie if I had a substitute for the margarine. But yet, the chocolate covered indulgent graham cracker cookie I ate tonight was just not good (and I know for a fact they used to be good). My body didn’t want it, I didn’t want it.
Even my beloved dark chocolate isn’t as appealing as it once was.
Think about the implications of this.
Imagine you no longer having to restrain yourself from eating unhealthy junk food because the craving simply is not there.
How did I get here?
I struggled for my whole life to get here, and WHAMMO. Out of the blue.
I used to have good willpower. I used to restrain myself on purpose. Now, it’s not even my decision.
So the question I have, is how does this help you?
I don’t really know why all of a sudden.
Is it my fitness level demanding quality fuel?
Is it my mind finally taking control?
A combination of both?
I feel like I have been given some magic beans but have no idea how to get them to grow.